I knew the scar was coming

and after three opinions, the surgeon was chosen with care,

this one less cavalier,

instilling a quiet hope that I might still recognize

the face in the mirror.

As the shiny scalpel cut away flesh

and the unruly cells that would not heal no matter what,

there was no going back,

words like beautiful and pretty,

falling away like a handful of coins,

no longer viable currency in this world.

Only afterwards did I realize,

I still held more valuable currency,

the words, light and love,

the illusion of losing my true self,  irrevocably shattered.

A beautiful “Tree of Faces” found in Stanley Park (Vancouver, B.C.).

A lovely nymph captured dancing in a wild wood in Stanley Park (Vancouver, B.C.).


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48 Responses to Illusion

  1. sandraleigh108 says:

    HI Kim 🌸

    That’s truly beautiful to read your words that uncover your truth and bare trauma. You are such a sweet soul, and this writing is affirmation of that! Thanks for sharing as i feel your exposure of pain is empowering. We are mirrors of each other, after all. Thank you for risking the pain, again, dear one. Go gently…

    B.t.w, did you get the call from the C.C., we don’t have class tomorrow. I’m so sorry to have to cancel but i had made an appointment (costing $350) and i didnt realize the conflict… when i went to reschedule, i was told i could not, or i would lose my $350.00!

    I will make it up to you, i’m not sure yet, but i will let you know if we add on a class or get refunds. I will try and add one on, depending on what the class wants, next Friday.

    i’m so sorry to miss you tomorrow, Kim, but keep that beautiful hand writing.

    Sandra >

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  2. markmkane says:

    Wow Kimberlee. This was hauntingly beautiful. It was like I was a fly on the wall watching as all this took place. Powerful words conveying true emotions. Awesome!

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  3. Jade M. Wong says:

    Wow, wow, wow, I felt like the speaker of the poem was speaking to me like a friend, that’s how close to it this poem made me feel. Powerful writing, here Kimberlee!

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  4. Samuel says:

    Beautiful words, Kimberlee, and funny trees! Thank you for sharing 🙂

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  5. Shirley Ross says:

    The C is gone, and only your beauty remains, no surgeon could ever take that away. Love Mom

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  6. Ugetse says:

    Ok Kimita, it is unimaginable the fear and pain you went through. You never once showed despair. You were brave the whole time. Yes, you still have valuable currency. Love, caring, generosity , integrity , beauty inside out and the gift of writing. Admirable, you truly are. Lucky to have you so close. 😘❤️💐

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  7. Thank you for capturing these precious words….you are an absolute marvel and I never cease to be amazed by your profound gift for creating such beautiful art!!! And the trees are such an intriguing bonus…I adore trees, and these are the stuff of enchantment Thanks for sharing 🙂

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  8. michnavs says:

    It makes sense to me now why you have such a beautiful heart kim…and yes our experiences (good or bad) may sometimes lead us to question our capacity as individuals..but as we reflect further we will realize that whatever happens at the end of the day we know who we truely are and that we know what we are capable of..

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  9. Beautifully written amidst a traumatic time. I do hope you are healing. Sending you a hug. 😍

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  10. What a gorgeous poem and testament to true beauty. Sometimes when the outer shell fades, the inner light shines brighter. I’ve noticed this with aging. My best to you for a speedy recovery. 🙂

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  11. Rowena says:

    Thank you for visiting my blog. I feel like I have picked up your story a few chapters in and I’m not sure how you’re going. Hope you are healing well and getting back on your feet. I gather you have had a cancer removed from your face, so I really admire your bravery in going through this. While I know a scar is evidence that you’re a survivor and you’ve overcome something, but all these platitudes don’t mean much when you’re about to go under the knife, especially when C is involved.
    Take care & best wishes,

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    • Thank you so much for stopping by, I appreciate your very kind words and you are right, I was diagnosed with two different cancers, one in 2011 & the other in 2012, I’m happy to report that I have recovered very well from both of them!

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  12. Simply-Me says:

    This was beautiful, I love the way you constructed this, at the end it is the inner core that outshines the outer, if only everyone understood this.

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  13. Miriam says:

    This is so beautiful, your words and sentiments matching and mirroring the images perfectly. 💕

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  14. Wow. This is absolutely magnificent. Thank you so much – I am touched by the caring and openness to the true beauty within. Wow. ❤ ❤ Sending you every blessing in the world. I appreciate your presence a lot.

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  15. ps – amazing photos! ❤

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  16. jpennerzook says:

    You use some powerful images here, Kimberlee, The words “falling away like a handful of coins, // no longer viable currency in this world” clang hard and cut deeply. You seem to be a very brave soul, and I’m grateful for the light and love you share with readers. I hope you are well.

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